I can already tell this is going to be one of those things you have to dare yourself to hit the "add" button. Anyway. its been months since I last logged in. Had to think to think for a sec to remember my password. Thats actually a really lame joke. I've used the same password for all my accounts for as long as I can remember. But you get the point. Its been a while. Sadly, I can't really say theres anything new. I'm in Oregon so things are looking up right now. Not so much at this very moment but over all things are good. I've been seeing my mom's therapist for the last few weeks. We did a few "tests" and tomorrow I get some kind of diagnosis. See just what kind of psycological issues I have. During out first meeting he suggested medication but theres a few things to be done before they can give me anything. He said he'll make it happen as quickly as he can before I snap. I wish I had more to say without getting into all the minor details. But other then whats been said so far, there really isn't anything. Still trying to look for something I'll probably never find. Still figuring out what I'm going to do after highschool. And still trying to have some fun. Its been a long day and its now turning out to be a long night. All of it has turned into one big blurr with each moment turning the knot in my stomch a little tighter and reminding me of just how disgusting the world can be. But is it all so bad?